How Many Boxes Hold Your Life

I used to keep a lot of stuff. Boxes and boxes of stuff. Then I began culling, donating, sharing stuff with friends. I still have boxes of stuff, sentimental things from childhood, items from our wedding, special outfits from when the kids were babies. The usual stuff. But I also had boxes of stuff from my first husband, Mark. After he died, I had so many containers filled with the things I … [Read more...]

Ten (10)

Mark, I can't believe you have been gone 10 years. How has an entire decade passed? You didn't get to experience much of it, but I firmly believe the second you become a parent you hit a time warp. It's the only way to explain how fast the time has gone. Mark, you would be so proud of Nicholas. He's so beautiful, smart, empathetic and funny. He's trying to figure out sarcasm, but is so upset … [Read more...]

Cinnamon Brooms and Comas

Cinnamon brooms in the grocery store are how I know it's time. The smell hits me like a wall every year. It's so strong and it's supposed to be pleasant, but it's not, not any more. It used to be, I used to be excited when the cinnamon brooms were in the grocery store because that meant all the good things. Cooler weather, pumpkins, scary movies, candy pumpkins, Thanksgiving, cranberry sauce. It … [Read more...]

Coming Back From The Sad

I'm coming back. I'm working my way back from a wicked case of sad. It was the worst since just after Mark died. You can always tell when I'm feeling bad because I don't write here. I have fun stuff to share, fun little projects I've done, a baby shower post, a book review, fun stuff. But I haven't because it felt completely out of place with where my mind was and how my heart felt. And I couldn't … [Read more...]

Beyond Thankful

Grandmas Brood

For many years, November has been hard for me. This year, though, I made a huge effort to stay ahead of the sad and concentrate on being really thankful for what I have and who I am. For the most part, I succeeded. There were definitely hard parts to the month, and I'm still coming away from some of those feelings now; but, it was so much better than it's been before. With that being said, I'm … [Read more...]