Widow Wednesday: Intro

I feel as if there are a couple of different groups of you guys. You know, the three of you who read my posts. It seems that some of you found me because of my life as a parent and the others because of my experience as a widow. It also seems that the two groups may not always overlap. So, in an effort to categorize my posts even more than I already do (I think I may have a problem with making … [Read more...]

Happy New Year and My List!

Every year, at the beginning of January, I start peppering my sentences with, "I can't believe it's already [insert year here]!" I tried to be more aware of the time this year, and part of that was working on my resolutions for 2011. I thought I had it all worked out, but I just read a post from Audrey McClelland of Mom Generations and I love her approach so much more than what I had. So I … [Read more...]

A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to Thanksgiving

We have at least two Thanksgivings each year (three if all the families are in town). Of course we have Thanksgiving with Grandma and all my aunts, uncles and cousins. If they are in town, we also go to William's parents' house. And, as I have most years since I was 19, I go over to Mark's parents' house. And now William does too. William sees Mark's dad, Larry, three days a week to get N … [Read more...]

Thankful for Time

Today I am thankful for the time I had with Mark. He and I grew up together and we created an amazing son. I wish Mark had had more time with Nicholas, and I know that he watches over Nicholas now. I am thankful for the love that Mark gave me, the patience I learned while we were together, and the relationship skills I acquired in my 10 years as his wife. I am thankful for our 14 years together … [Read more...]

Thankful for Knowledge

I am thankful for knowledge. Even though I knew what he wanted, and even though I knew that there was only brain stem activity still going, when I asked that Mark be removed from life support, a part of me worried that he heard me. That he heard me say, "Take him off of life support." And that when he heard me say that he screamed inside his head, "No! I'm still here! Don't let me die!" For almost … [Read more...]