Cinnamon Brooms and Comas

Cinnamon brooms in the grocery store are how I know it's time. The smell hits me like a wall every year. It's so strong and it's supposed to be pleasant, but it's not, not any more. It used to be, I used to be excited when the cinnamon brooms were in the grocery store because that meant all the good things. Cooler weather, pumpkins, scary movies, candy pumpkins, Thanksgiving, cranberry sauce. It … [Read more...]

Widow Wednesday: Giving Up Hope

Several months ago, when I was dropping the kids off at my Grandmother's house, my attention was caught by a story on the TODAY show. The story was about a person who had woken from a coma.  I tend to notice all of those stories, but then this had the phrase I hate. The patient woke up when, "the family was just about to give up hope". This isn't just a pet peeve. This phrase cuts me to the … [Read more...]

Widow Wednesday: Movies Lie

In real life, comas aren't like they are in the movies. That may not be a surprise to you, but it was to me. I was shocked by so many things when Mark got sick and during his time in the hospital(s). Like his coma. They said he was in a coma, but I didn't believe them for a few days because it didn't look like comas look in the movies. I know. That's stupid, right? To be surprised that reality … [Read more...]

The Real Day

The death certificate says that Mark died was November 19th, but it's wrong. The real date is October 19th. My Mom and I were getting ready to go to the hospital and my phone rang. When your husband is in the hospital, and not doing well, you don't want your phone to ring at 6:45 in the morning. Nothing good can come from that. The voice on the phone said, "Mrs. Deer, your husband is on his way … [Read more...]

Reason 8,237

Would you like to know Reason 8,237 why I love my husband? Today we watched "Steel Magnolias," and somehow I forgot about the hospital scene where M'Lynn is by Shelby's side. But William knew what was coming up, and without my noticing, he moved to sit next to me so that when M'Lynn is holding pictures up to Shelby and demanding Shelby wake from the coma, my husband was sitting next to me holding … [Read more...]