Weight: A New Perspective

I don’t know if everyone is this way, but I have no real understanding of weight and how I feel at any certain weight. What I mean is that I assume that if I felt good at any given time (really pretty or sexy or confident), it must have been a time when I weighed less than now. I would have sworn, in court, that during those confident times I was 30 or 40 pounds lighter than I am now. It turns out that during at least one of those times, I was within three pounds of where I am now.

I went to the doctor today for a post-op check up and asked her to tell me some of my weigh-in numbers over the past few years. I was completely shocked by some of them. Because I truly thought I was lighter before. For example, I was within one size on my wedding day as I am now when I would have sworn I was pounds and pounds lighter. But, right this second, I’m within 15 pounds of where I was two weeks after having Tobin when I would have sworn that I am pounds and pounds heavier right now. It’s all very confusing.

It made me start thinking about perception and weight. I always knew that I wasn’t really great at telling how much I weighed at any given time, but seeing the numbers and knowing what was happening at that point in my life really shocked me.

I don’t know that they are connected, but I’m also completely flummoxed when I try to decide how much someone else weighs or what size a person should wear. And then you throw in the mix of different women carrying weight differently, therefore making someone who looks much larger than someone else wear the same size clothing. I’m completely screwed.

But why does it matter? It doesn’t. Obviously my weight doesn’t make an actual difference in how I feel. I just think it does. But faced with the reality of that weight versus how I felt at the time, I see that there is no real correlation. Logic doesn’t often enter into my thought process as it applies to my weight. It’s a new feeling.

I'm only about 10 pounds heavier now than then. But I felt 100 pounds lighter

I’m only about 10 pounds heavier now than then. But I felt 100 pounds lighter

Fitness Friday: Removing Barriers to Exercise

Hi Fitness Friday people <said in the “party people” tone>! How was your week? Mine was okay-ish. I ate everything I could put my hands on had some food issues. I’m going to work on that this coming week.

I used the bike we bought! The stationary, recumbent bike. I have no excuse not to exercise with that big old bike right in the middle of our living room. Talk about removing barriers. My goal is to use it three times in the coming week.

I had some other interesting insights into my brain this week regarding weight that I’ll talk about in another post.

Did you go visit Deanna last week? We’re in this together, so give her some love too!

So, how was your health, fitness, weight, exercise week?

Fitness Friday: Weighing My Options

Get it? “Weighing” my options? Heh.

Seriously. I’m weighing my health/fitness/weight loss options. Putting it all on the table. Gathering research, talking to friends, talking to doctors, trying to think of everything – every way – to get me healthy.

I’ll keep you updated.

Fitness Friday: Week 11 & Getting Fit In Your 40s

Every week, along with my progress update, I’m sharing guest posts from friends who are making changes in their lives to live more healthily. This week’s guest poster is my friend, Deborah Buentello-Carriles. Deborah and I went to the same high school, and she’s the big sister of a guy in my class (Seniors ’93 Rule!). When we were in school, I thought Deborah was one of the prettiest and nicest girls in the world! Also, she was a cheerleader who wore glasses, which I thought was awesome. Deborah hasn’t changed at all, she’s still one of the nicest and prettiest women in the world (only with contacts now). Deborah shares some thoughts on getting and staying healthy in your 40s and one of her favorite easy weeknight meals. You can also visit her YouTube channel to find a few recipes that she’s posted where you’ll see just how awesome she is!

Deborah’s words…

When Sherry asked me to be a guest post on her blog re fitness and recipes my response was, “of course!”. But honestly it was more like, “hell yeah!” LOL! So let me tell you a bit about me.  I am a soon to be 42-year-old Mama, and nope, I am not one of those women who hate to reveal their age. I truly believe that age is simply a number. I am a Mama to my awesome 8-year-old daughter and a wife to an amazing hubby. I am a stay at home Mommy and keep myself busy with two online businesses where I get to show off my crafty side. I own Gigi Belle Designs (Mami Designs on Facebook) and 2 Mama’s Tees (2 Mamas Tees on FB) which I share with my very talented friend Tami Z.

As for the fitness part of this piece, let me tell you when I decided it was time to change. Well, you know about the freshman 15? I gained the 15 lbs and then some when I went off to college. At my heaviest I weighed 135 lbs and I am 5’1″! Uh huh…that is no bueno. So what made me decided to lose it? It was something major, my Daddy had a heart attack. I decided right then and there that it was time for me to change.

After that happened, my weight was at the forefront of my mind and still is. Yes, I can become obsessed with it but I do try not to be too hard on myself when the weight fluctuates (especially around that time of the month) but it happens…I knock myself down, I am only human.

Now let;s talk fitness. Find something you love to do and just do it…just like that shoe company says. If you love walking—walk, if you love running—run, if you love dancing—try Zumba. Ask a friend/spouse to be your cheerleader. If you miss a workout, don’t get down on yourself, just make it up the next day.

Next, let’s talk food. Here are a few things that I keep in mind. I always read labels. I look out for calories per serving and sodium count. I don’t pay too much attention to sugar as I am not much into sweets. I love to cook!  I sneak in whole wheat flour whenever I can. I make weekly menus when possible and try to make at least one of my meals for the week a fish dish. I stay away from sodas all together and drink lots of water. I hardly ever fry anything, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have fries…if I want them I eat them…everything in moderation.

So here is a recipe my family loves: Baked Salmon, Baked Asparagus and Wild Rice

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Line a cookie sheet with foil paper and spray with a non stick cooking spray. Lay salmon skin side down and spray salmon with non stick cooking spray. Season with your favorite seasoning mix. Cook salmon to your liking. I usually bake until it is cooked through as my family is not into medium rare salmon.

Line a cookie sheet with foil. Spread rinsed asparagus onto cookie sheet and drizzle with EVOO and season with sea salt and pepper. Note-I put the asparagus in when my salmon is halfway done.

Wild Rice
Here is where I cheat. I love Uncle Ben’s Wild Rice. I cook according to package.

And there you have it…dinner is served!

Deborah, one of the nicest and prettiest women ever!


Sherry’s update…

I am calling this week The Week of Asshole Medicine. I started taking an oral steroid two weeks ago and increased the dosage this past week. The doctor told me it could make me gain weight and retain water, and I seem to be one of the lucky ones that that applies to. I’m not saying I had a perfect week with my eating, but it doesn’t merit the craziness that is my weight and measurements this week. But, I’m sticking to the plan and working through it, and only have two more weeks with the medicine.


  • I did much better with staying hydrated this week. I drank all of my H2Orange every day this week.
  • I worked to keep my portion sizes right and to only eat when I was hungry.
  • I picked up a cookie cake for Nicholas’ birthday this week and didn’t eat anything while I was there! Y’all, I wanted one of the fudge brownies so bad. But, I resisted.
  • Weight…I gained 7 pounds! Related: this medicine is an asshole. Last week I was down 16 pounds since I started the program and 26 pounds since my highest of 301. With this week’s weight, I’m back to where I was in the middle of April.
  • Inches…I put 6.5 inches back on. Related: this medicine is an asshole. Last week I was down two more inches for a total of 26.5 inches in 10 weeks. With this week’s measurements, I’m back to where I was around the second week of the program.


  • Not getting discouraged about this weight/inches/swelling situation. I know it’s not all just my behavior, but it’s hard not to get frustrated.
  • We’re going to the Hill Country this weekend to visit William’s grandmothers, so it will be a challenge to drink all my H2Orange and not to eat too much or when I’m not hungry.

So, how did you all do this week?

Past Posts on my fitness Journey…

Fitness Friday: Week 10 & Tips for Staying On The Wagon

Every week, along with my progress update, I’m sharing guest posts from friends who are making changes in their lives to live more healthily. This week’s guest poster is my friend, Ellen. She and I have known each other for many years and I’m excited for her to give you some tips for staying on the wagon (and a bonus recipe!)

Ellen’s words…

I’m honored that Sherry asked me to contribute over here at Paper, Scissors, Keyboard. Sherry and I have known each other for years, and have had a crazy adventure or two, which now includes our journey for weight loss.

Though you wouldn’t believe it if you saw me in person,  my doctor told me to lose 50 pounds – before I had children. I wear all my weight in my thighs and hips. He wanted me to go on the South Beach Diet. I tried, but that “lifestyle change” just didn’t work for me.

Over the years I have tried Weight Watchers and LA Weight Loss – both wonderful programs in their own right. However I’m on a tight budget now that I am a SAHM, so I’ve picked up some sound advice that I’ve learned from each program (and others) and have incorporated them into my own weight loss initiative through the LoseIt app for the iPhone.

So here are some weight loss tips that I’ve collected over the years that I’d like to share with Sherry and you:

  1. For me it all comes down to <<cover your ears>> counting calories.  Seriously, if I can keep my calorie in-take below 1,600 daily and watch my portion size – I’ve won the battle for the day.  Measuring everything for the first few weeks is essential until I have a feel for correct portion sizes for different food categories.
  2. A lot of recipes call for sautéing onions and garlic in oil or butter. But do you realize that water sautés just as well and is calorie free? Try it. I don’t think you’ll miss any flavor at all.
  3. Have a sweet tooth? Snack on dates.  Majool dates are my favorite and can be easily found in your grocery store. They are plump and “milky” and I recommend starting with this variety first. However make sure they aren’t dried out before purchasing.
  4. Water, water, water – and then drink some more water.  If there is one thing that is the greatest contributor to loosing weight, it’s water. It flushes our system. Water really is the fountain of youth.
  5. Don’t skimp on your kitchen tools. Last week I bought a Vitamix, a purchase I should have made 15 years ago.  I never knew making smoothies, humus and soups could be so effortless. By buying a refurbished mixer from the Vitamix website I saved $100 and also received a five year warranty.

Last of all; if you fall off the wagon, just jump back on. That’s the beauty about it being a wagon: it goes really slow so you can catch up.  I’m just thankful that it’s not a race car that speeds on ahead and leaves me behind.

Veggie Hot Pocket

  • ½ Yellow Sweet Onion, sliced
  • 1 Fennel Bulb, sliced
  • 2 cups Spinach
  • 1 Tomato, medium sized, diced
  • 1 Avocado, diced
  • Sea Salt
  • Black Pepper
  • Whole Wheat Pita Pockets

Sauté onion and fennel bulb in 2 Tlbs of water. Add water if needed. Add spinach and sauté until wilted. Add tomato and avocado until warmed. Season with salt and pepper. Cut pita pocket in half, toast or lightly heat. Fill each half of the pita pocket with veggies.

Ellen blogs over at The Hip Vegetarian and The Bloom Diaries. Since the new year she’s lost 10 lbs by watching her calories, however she falls off the wagon every week. She’s a little bruised up. However her new Vitamix has given her the energy to take a running leap towards the wagon again.

Sherry’s update…

This week, I worked slowly toward a firmer seat on the wagon. I’m still on…but it’s still easy to fall off.


  • I did much better with staying hydrated this week. I drank all of my H2Orange several times during the week and almost all on the other days.
  • I worked to keep my portion sizes right and to only eat when I was hungry.
  • Weight…I lost 2 pounds! I’m so excited! So, I’m down 16 pounds in these 10 weeks and 26 pounds since my highest of 301).
  • Inches…I lost 2 more inches! That’s a total of 26.5 inches in the last 10 weeks. Woot!


  • Avoiding sugar continues to be a challenge for me. And it is pretty directly related to not drinking the full gallon of my H2Orange. When I drink that, I stay pretty strong…when I don’t? I want to eat my weight in peach cobbler.

So, how did you all do this week?

Past Posts on my fitness Journey…

Fitness Friday: Week One

I made it through my first week, y’all! I started the weight-loss program through my hospital and it’s challenging a lot of my thinking. This week has been pretty big for me though! 


  • Within two days of starting the program, I noticed that the constant swelling of my feet and legs that hasn’t gone away since I was pregnant with Tobin went away! My hands are also significantly less swollen (which is great for putting on my wedding ring).
  • Zero sweets/sugar for the week. This one is really my biggest challenge. If I didn’t love candy and pastry like I do, I wouldn’t be fat. I’m not exaggerating. I don’t overeat meals, I overeat candy and sweet junk. So, for me to go an entire week without added sugar or candy is huge.
  • The program asks us to drink at least 60 ounces of this concoction they call H2Orange (seven parts water to one part orange juice with a package of Crystal Light powder for flavor). I’ve had a full gallon every day this week. Which also explains the awesome disappearance of the swelling.
  • Weight…I’ve lost three pounds this week! I’m so excited y’all! I know a lot of this is water weight and I have a lot more to lose, but I’m taking my successes as they come.
  • Inches…This really blew me away, but I’ve lost 10.75 total inches this week. What?!? It came off everywhere except my arms. I was stunned when I measured this morning.


  • I really, really wanted some candy on Wednesday. Thankfully I have some great support folk who talked me down. But it was the first hard core craving I had this week.
  • I’m spending a significant amount of time in the bathroom from all that H2Orange. But yay for no swelling!
  • I don’t eat dinner with the family any more. I mean, I still hang out with them while they are eating, but I don’t get hungry for dinner until much later in the evening than they eat, so I don’t eat with them.

I’m sure I’ll be reading this post later, when the pounds and inches are coming off so quickly, but I’m savoring the success this week! How did your week go?