Best Laid Plans: Postpartum Edition

I was really prepared this time. I knew the signs of postpartum depression, I know my own triggers for anxiety, and I know how I deal with both. I had plans in place to stay healthy after I gave birth because I didn't before. This time would be different. I took good care of myself during this pregnancy. I never had to take insulin and I lost about 20 pounds. I wasn't dieting or anything, it was … [Read more...]

More For 39!

It's my birthday you guys! Today I'm 39 and am a little startled that I'm beginning the last year of this decade. I just don't know how the last years have gone so quickly. I want to make sure I make the most of the year before I begin a new decade. I want more this year. More. More Words. I want to write more words this year. In the last year, I’ve barely written here (did you notice?), and … [Read more...]

Coming Back From The Sad

I'm coming back. I'm working my way back from a wicked case of sad. It was the worst since just after Mark died. You can always tell when I'm feeling bad because I don't write here. I have fun stuff to share, fun little projects I've done, a baby shower post, a book review, fun stuff. But I haven't because it felt completely out of place with where my mind was and how my heart felt. And I couldn't … [Read more...]

Weight: A New Perspective

I don't know if everyone is this way, but I have no real understanding of weight and how I feel at any certain weight. What I mean is that I assume that if I felt good at any given time (really pretty or sexy or confident), it must have been a time when I weighed less than now. I would have sworn, in court, that during those confident times I was 30 or 40 pounds lighter than I am now. It turns out … [Read more...]

Fitness Friday: Celebrating Success

I don't know about you guys, but I need to celebrate every little success around my trying to get healthy. Every little success. I wasn't really aware I did that until I posted a picture on Instagram earlier this week and my friend, Chris, commented on my celebrating. Because I am finding this healthy journey to be really hard, I need to celebrate every single time I do something well. I need to … [Read more...]